Category: Bible Lessons From My Daily Devotion

John:12-14
12:Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, :and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.13: And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.14: You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.

 

 

Guys. I am a MONOTHEIST. I don’t promote any religion or I make fun of any religion. I read all ancient texts and find out what is written there and what wisdom is hiding in those scriptures. I only aim at using these scriptures to encourage myself first, and if it worked for me , then I will share it. I have my own view about God and heavens. Since, both are very controversial subjects, I don’t promote my views and I don’t go for debates to prove which God is which and who is the rightest way of life. If you think your views are precious, the I have every right to think that my views are also right.

 

Too many people are out there to promote their religion, but I always look into the personal life, values and the standards of these promoters. If a person is truly dedicated to the living god, then their life will be full of divine and truthful fruits. If they preach and the fruits they are producing are evil and poisonous then there is no point in following his or her philosophy. If we are righteous people will get naturally attracted to us and follow our examples. If we are doing all the evil things and preach your concept of god is accurate, then you must crosscheck what kind of signals are you emitting.

 

 
As a theologian, I suggest to all those conversion maniacs to read other religious texts as well. Most of these conversion lists do not know what exactly is the content in the books of other religions. Even if they know, they all interpret it wrongly to give mileage to the style of faith which they promote.

For those who ardently work for the promotion of their religion, I have a humble suggestion. If your life is radiant and godly, then people will come to you on their own to know about your faith pattern. Conversions are done by people who are sure that they don’t have anything to attract others with their personal life. God is bigger than any religion or any concept. The truth is that we all are messengers of God.

 

Well, Whenever I was stuck in my life these scriptures has always encouraged me to move on. Jesus, assured his disciples, that they can do great things by faith
Disciples were very much troubled during the Passover ritual. Jesus gave them hints that he is all set to leave them. Then of course they were troubled. Jesus washed their feet, set up an example for his humility and showed how much we should be serving others. Here we can see, he even asking Judas to speed up the deceiving process. Jesus of course knew his time has come up to leave earth and get Moksha.

 

He knew Judas will betray him, and after that betrayal, intense sufferings are waiting for him. Yet, he was so courageous to face the sufferings and torture. He was ready to go through those sufferings because he knew he completed his mission successfully. It really needs guts to know what’s going to happen and to go through the sufferings. Only strong-willed people will survive the trials and temptations. If you are fickle minded, the life on earth is not for you. You will leave your life half way like a shit coward.

 

 

When we look at Jesus’s life, we can see so many temptations. Ye, whoever live on these three dimensions will have temptations. Yet, he lived a great life, by preaching, teaching, and counseling. He may be Son of God and may not be. His teachings were subtle and great even if you say that he is not God. I am a monotheist and I don’t pray to Jesus. I always get enlightened by his teachings. I dunno what blocks people from following one’s views. Jesus was a taboo breaker. He was a revolutionary. It really need guts to get into the fort of Jews and to call their king Herod a FOX
Luke 13:32
He replied, “Go tell that fox, ‘I will keep on driving out demons and healing people today and tomorrow, and on the third day I will reach my goal.’
Jesus did not hesitate to take out the whip and beat the traders in the synagogue.

 

 

One thing I learned from my theology class, is if you are a spiritual being, then you should be full of action, live and zeal, because when we see Jesus, we can see his as the person with full of zeal for his mission.
He wakes up early in the morning, going to the mountain and praying, then going for teaching, preaching and counseling, helping his dad in his carpentry work, going fishing with his friends, serving others, then in the night also he praying and thus ending the day with gratitude. His lifestyle was one goal at my theology class. We were trying our level best to reach the standard of Jesus. Waking up early will naturally come to me because I born to a working woman. My mother gave this habit to me and my brother in the childhood. At our home, it was a crime to wake up after 6 a m. Even my dad also never slept for long. My parents used to wake up before 5 am. Now also.

 

 

My daughter and son can also wake up, but they sleep until 5:30 a m. My husband also doesn’t sleep beyond 6 a m. He wakes up and he cleans the room, water the plants, washes the clothes in washing machine, then keep them for drying, in between he updates his FB, whats app, and talk to ex gal friends (LOL) and share what they do and how they are doing in their life with me. My dad also wakes up and do all these things other than FB and whats app.
Since me and my husband being theologians (we were classmates in bible classes) we both had the goal to be like Jesus. That was a campaign to write down what we learn from the daily life of Jesus and what we are looking to adopt in our life. Some people wanted to be more serving, some people wanted to be happier and zealous, some wanted to wake up early. I remember, my prayer life was not great so I kept my goal to pray like Jesus. I used to go to loneliness and talk to my Lord for hours.

 

 

So, here in this chapter, Jesus is enlightening and making his disciples strong since he knew, his time to leave earth is fast approaching.

 

 

Obviously, this is a hard time for the disciples. Of course, they have so much of struggles ahead. They have to stand alone first. Until then, they were pampered by Jesus, counseled and protected by Jesus. Now it’s time for them to prove how solid they are in their faith.
Jewish clergy, which we all know has set of rules in who can be the priest. Not all have the authority to call upon god. Jesus, we all know that he stood against the power centers and they crucified Jesus for what they felt as BLASPHEMY.

 

 

Its Jesus’ duty to fix his disciples on the faith and he is boosting their faith.
Here he says,
John 14: 12-14

12: Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing,an d they will do even greater things than these because I am going to the Father.13: And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.14: You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.

 

 

Jesus did those things which some human feels difficult to do. He performed so many miracles. He gave eyesight to the blind, he forgave sins, he turned water into the vine, he controlled the nature. He shared his great wisdom with the power of God.

 

 

To his disciples, he is assuring, they can do greater things than what Jesus did. The condition is that your action should be to glorify god. Not for your own glory.

 

 

If God has to bless us, the first things are that we should look at glorifying god. Not for personal glory. The personal glory will naturally come up when god start blessing you

 
These days people are looking for self-promotions. Men or women, they are trying many methods to gain popularity to encash it. I dunno how many of them are glorifying the lord, how many of them are bringing others closer to god.

 

If I want greater things to happen in your life, I am sure I must do those things to glorify him. When people look at me they should see the glory of god, not the glory of mortal human being. I have done so many things to tarnish the image of god, where people looked at me and said what a calamity on mankind.

 

 

The promise from an enlightened being is that we can do greater things than him, but there is only one condition we should glorify God.

 

 

There are certain lines which say, we should ask through Jesus. Verse 13 and 14
12: Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing,an d they will do even greater things than these because I am going to the Father.13: And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.14: You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.
Well, as a monotheist, I like to take only what is the ultimate meaning. Those who follow Jesus can follow what their heart Says.

 

 

My take on this scripture is this

If we are following a path, where our life path is glorifying god, then we can do great things.

This verse has spurred me to the core and it is keeping on enlightening me. It is pushing me to deny myself and move on a great mission to glorify my Lord, I don’t want to act in order to do greater things than anyone. Being a human being all I want to share the light of wisdom and hope to all, which I have in my life.

 

 

 

Jesus may be the son of god or not, are we respecting the pious lifestyle he had. Are we learning the good things he taught, are we applying those techniques in our life, are we growing in our life………….these are the real questions.

 

 

As human beings, we all will fall, but the question is that do we have that guts to stand back on the grace of the Lord despite your religion.

David’s Prayer

I am very irritated these days, irritated with everything. After a weeklong viral fever anyone will get into such PVFD (Post Viral Fever Depression). I think true love for my boyfriend Dr. Mashoor Gulati is increasing day by day. I can’t stop thinking about him. I love him that much. I am even adopting his mannerisms………..Ohhh what a busy day?

 

 

Finally, my 7-year trial is going to end by next June, I mean June 2017. My Ketu dasa is getting completed. Let me put it like this, I survived a dangerous time period in life. Usually, people tend to finish their life, but me, by the grace of my lord I survived. The first 3 years was really messy, risky and painful. Then on 2013, I took time for myself…….I went for a lonely stay for 6 months in Bangalore for a retrospect. I was thinking “what the Eff am I doing? My soul was asking me; don’t you want a break in life? What value am I adding to MY life? God gave me this life. What the eff sm I giving back to him?”

 

 

A 6 month’s retrospect put my life in a different dimension altogether. I was an astrologer then also….but I never ever bothered to study my chart. One cold morning in Bangalore, I downloaded an astrology software on my laptop and went to Cubbon park and for the first time in my life I took my birth chart and saw how my Lord has designed me. From that day onwards………I did not look back to my life or never allowed my life to grip me . Then onwards what I sought was just my lord’s grace and love.
The first time I saw my astrology chart I was so astonished….It is a very hopeless chart, to be frank. Out of 10 astrologers, I met till then, 9 of them wrote of my chart as hopeless with intense Sanyas Yoga. That means I can’t live like an ordinary woman. I should not have an association with ordinary people as well, even if it is mother or father. Looking at the Moon-Saturn conjunction in Navamsha , I was really really upset. Then only I understood why my parents always gave me a step –parental treatment. There were times in my life where I openly denied and doubted my parents to be my own parents. I asked them so many times for a DNA test. Because me and my parents had a difficult relationship always………….During my childhood, I was wondering why my parents are so unfair to me. What they can do? They can only obey the signals of the universe. Until then I had so much of hatred towards my parents but when I saw that conjunction my whole hatred vanished. I must have done some wrong to this man and woman in my past birth. I am paying back to them through my pains .and somehow I wanted to release myself from that Karmic debt. If they abuse me, let them………all I am doing is releasing myself from that Karmic bondage.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whenever you have a Moon and Saturn conjunction in your chart that majorly shows a step parental treatment. Lack of love, care and nourishment from parents. I donno the reason behind that, but as a person who sees past birth as a valid matter, I strongly believe that I did some serious crime against this Man and woman in the past birth who are originated as my parents in my present birth. They are doing their Karma.  They are here to persecute me, so that I can look upto my lord who is my true creator…………….they are just into a passive mode.  I am no one to block it. The moment I release myself from this Karmic debt, my relationship with them will go fine. From that moment onwards I started looking at parents in my present birth in a different angle. That truly mellowed my internal turmoil regarding the parental approach. All I did had only one intention……….release myself from this bondage. This man and woman should get peace. I have never seen my parent’s chart, but I don’t think that they are destined to moksha in this birth. That is in the Lord’s hand, but when we practice astrology and theology for long, we will get to know who has the closer chances to have moksha. I don’t think my parents have that capability to break their Karmic bondage.They have to take birth again and die again and their Karmic cycle has to go through many births and deaths.
One month back , I was spending time with my parents and described them how this conjunction worked in my life and they don’t have to feel sorry for hurting me or I should not feel overwhelmed by the kind of disunity between me and them. I taught them the significance of Moon’s placement, Sun’s placement and I took an hour long class on liberation as well. I told them” It was destined to happen, so it happened. Now you have to make sure you don’t carry these debts to your next life.” I dunno whether they understood or not. They always say that” Our daughter is little off” LOL.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is just one factor in the chart, but the entire chart was looking very risky. Now when I have understood the programming, all I have to do is calling upon the programmer. It’s none other than my Lord Almighty.
Astrology can’t do anything more than giving inputs about your personality, life, health, career and so and so. If you want a perfection and satisfaction in your life you need the blessings of the lord. No other science can give you that enlightenment about your creation than astrology caN. If you ask me I would suggest that astrology should be taught in schools, it should be a session in motivational and corporate training classes. We should not run away from astrology, but we should reach a conclusion on how astrology can be used to bring more self-awareness.

 

 

 

I stayed in Bangalore for so many days. It is the city where I found myself and it gave me my life back. I love Bangalore for that reason. I simply went out in the darkness, just roamed around in the malls, went out for movie with my ex-colleagues who work in SAP , went to Shimoga, stood near the mighty river Bhadravathi, went Mc Donald’s with my friend Vaishnavi Kekuda, I wore a short dress plus stilettos and went to pub with my teacher ( as I was taking a certification course as well) She asked me whether I drink, since I don’t, she just took a beer. She asked me to take a beer also, but I don’t like such drinking and smoking. She was a young and beautiful woman. She is acting in a serial in ETV also. She was living in with a guy from a remote place in Bangalore. She explained to me how she miss him and how she enjoys kissing and hugging and doing wonderful bed activities in the cold climate of Bangalore. Well, apni Apni life hey……..

 

 

 

She had a younger brother, who used to come to my class. He was working in an IT company in Hyderabad. He resigned the job and hunting for the job in Blr. I became very good friends with this siblings and three of us used to go and have Biriyani . …….They had a great fascination for Kerala, the amount of jewels we wear…….I don’t wear any jewel , so they were wondering and asking why am I not wearing any jewels.

 
I was running short of money, but my friends were so gracious to send me money as 3000s, 5000s into my account and till date they haven’t asked me back. They refused when I gave back….they said you enjoy your life, but come back as a new woman. I promised them yes and I did.

 

 

My lord took care of me through a long time of crisis and pain due to lack of career growth, pains from my son’s disease, an internal crisis, poor health and financial crunch.

 

 

 

I will take you to the holy scriptures Psalm 63:

A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.
1 You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name, I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips, my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you; your right hand upholds me.
9 Those who want to kill me will be destroyed; they will go down to the depths of the earth.
10 They will be given over to the sword and become food for jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God; all who swear by God will glory in him, while the mouths of liars will be silenced.

 
David, who was shepherd boy, was chosen to rule the Kingdom of Israel. Israel was under the rule of King Saul, who was chosen by God, but later became evil and he wanted to kill David out of jealousy. David was Saul’s son-in-law. Saul’s intention was to kill David.
So David is running away from Saul and staying in a desert. Since people loved David more than King Saul, King wanted to kill him. David and his fellow men lived in the dessert for almost 7 – 8 years out of the King’s fear.

 

 

 

It is a real horror being alone in life. Living alone, without dear and near around that too in a dessert. For me, I am ok with loneliness as I have a lonely Moon. I may love to become lonely, but a person like David would never ever like to be in a tough situation. I used to read the story of Queens in England like Anne Boleyn, and so many other princes who were destined to live alone with the fear of death.

 

 

 

Here David is fighting for his survival. He knows King Saul is after his life. So, there is no another way than calling up on the Lord.

 

 

 

Even though none was ever after my life, I also have gone through stress and pain and called upon my Lord ……Now a day’s 24*7 I do that.

 

 

 

Ps63:6 On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night.

 

 

 

David is unable to sleep out of fear and he is keeping his trust and faith only in the Lord. He is holding onto the Lord. He knows only the Lord can save him from the fear and destruction which is possibly waiting for him. David, so far he led a righteous life don’t see any reason for such a great pain in his life, but he is not questioning the Lord’s righteousness here.
At times I used to question God by numbering my qualities like

• I haven’t hurt anyone
• I haven’t done this
• They have done this still they are enjoying their life
• I helped them, but my life still sucks
• Why you don’t see my good deeds
• You are unjust
Bla blab la……

But, the lord is one kind. He is not bothered about our numbered sentiments. He has some plan……..we truly dunno what exactly is that. Actually, no one knows. Even the no1 astrologer in the world can’t say what God has in store for one. What happens tomorrow can’t be predicted by anyone.

 

 

 

As we go through the psalms, we can see David courageously facing all his problems. He even got a chance to kill Saul, but he doesn’t do that. He is waiting to win the battle with righteousness. He is trusting the lord and depending on the lord. Sometimes his prayers become like mine, like promoting himself, but majorly he is showing his trust in the lord itself. Finally looking at his trust the Lord is anointing him as the King of United Israel.

 

 

 

He is enduring. Actually, most of us lack endurance. Lack of endurance is the real reason behind all the downfalls, suicides, fights, quarrels and pains. If we have to have endurance, we should stand on a solid foundation. In psalms, we can see him calling God as a rock. He is sure God is standing with him firmly. If we are not standing on that rock we are not unshakable. Our pains, worries, and troubles will grip us and put us down.

 

 

 

This where our concept of god becomes important. I am a monotheist and I don’t follow any particular religion. I am not a propagandist for any religion also. All I do is to find god in every religious principle. My god does not have any shape or any particular language. It doesn’t need a specific place to listen to me. It doesn’t need a specific mode of worship. It accepts me even though I go through my menstrual cycle. It is given by that force. My lord is bigger than the entire universe and he doesn’t need any substitutes, he can’t die or get killed or born again for any cause, symbols, any particular day, muhurta , any equipment to act.   That force is beyond all the human concepts of purity……………I love my LOrd …..  Noone can say what his plans are and all we have to do is doing Good Karma according to his standards.

 

 

 

As far as I know, the lord is looking for a heart to heart conversation. It will surely open up our wisdom so that we can deal with our burdens. It will make our burdens light, I can move ahead with a date without my lord. I will land in all kind of problems. Like David, I also like to remember my Lord 24*7. Lord …what he wants is the same as far as I know.

 
8 I cling to you; your right hand upholds me.
9 Those who want to kill me will be destroyed; they will go down to the depths of the earth.

It is been so many days since I had an insightful study from  the Bible, I was so busy in traveling and pending work. My prayer life was also very much sinking, A day without 1 hour prayer like a shit for me. I can’t function properly. So today morning I decided in the bus itself that I will have a deep Bible study and share a lesson for my readers.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ephesians 5:2 2     And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and has given himself for us an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet smelling smell.
(If you are a Bible lover, I suggest you follow NIV version, which is very easy to understand and they use very meaningful words which touches our soul and transcends our lower understanding.)
The Book of Ephesians was supposed to write by Paul the self-proclaimed disciple of Jesus. Now there are so many arguments against Paul’s authorship, well, who wrote it should not be an issue. We should only look for the content.

 

 

So many times I have read the Book of Ephesians; again I started reading from Chapter 1.
Ephesus was the city in present Turkey and it was an industrial area. Greek gods were popular there so, Paul went to preach and started a congregation of Christians there. Of course any group, religious or non-religious will go through many issues like external attack and internal politics, so, Book of Ephesians is a call from Paul to keep his congregation strong. In this entire book, he is asking the members of the congregation to think about the base of their congregation and get back to that base.

 

 

I donno for other theologians, when we go through Paul’s writing somewhere we will get a doubt that is he promoting himself of God? So, whenever I read Paul’s articles I purposefully skip his self promotion based claims like he went through suffering, he taught others, he is that and he is this ………….he did that, he did this…….. , so that I can fix my eyes more on God and his graciousness. To be frank, Paul sometimes create a mental block to readers his by self promoting lines . Lekin ye sab hota hey, when we live a hatke lifestyle we are in a threshold to show the world……….” Hey world look at me , I am this and learn from me” Well, that is a call from the universe and You can nowhere block it.

 

 

It is like being humbly prideful In my theology life time, I was  known as a humbly  prideful person. I used to put statements in such a way that I promote myself a lot, but it had a coating of humility, but when you unwrap…..it is all pride, pride, and pride. Kindly blame my Guru Chandal dosh….Jupiter and Rahu conjunction…….

 

 

Ephesians 4:14- Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming.
In chapter 4:14 Paul says :we should not act like infants once when are enlightened by the true love of god. God showed his true love by sending his son and thus saving us. Even if we set Christ apart, when we have that enlightenment, and when we live in the brightness of that enlightenment, we should not be immature in handling our lives.

 

 

See, you should see this as an enlightening call. We all are always humans while our stay on earth and we are programmed for some or other kind of inequities. Here the scripture says, we should be mature enough to understand our temptations to fall into the same kind of inequity again and again. That doesn’t mean we move from one sin to another, its all about conquering ourselves.

Ha….conquering ourselves hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I just read the news about recent BRICS summit held in Goa. Today’s Times of India comes up with coverage about Russia’s silence over India’s need to Ban Jaysh E Mohammad and Lashkae E Tayyaba. Terrorism in the name of any religion should be banned because we all are different from each other and the universe has programmed us in different ways. Our parents are different; our Karma is different so there is no point in forcefully making a second person accepting your ideologies. What we can do is to just respect their religious views unless it contradicts or violate the basic human needs or rights. China and Russia, the two biggies in BRICS need more mutual interaction. Especially China, which is a closed economy and country, they are not keen about India’s love. Why we follow soft methods. So much of mild moves and time we Indian’s believe that our country doesn’t have the power to strike back unless someone fire from the LOC. When India conducted those surgical strikes, I was in Delhi, the capital of India. Out of 50 Indians, I spoke only 3 believed that India has done those attacks. Rest of the 47 people felt that is a lie promoted by the government and India doesn’t have the guts to strike back. One guy even told, “ye India be soldiers or army chiefs nothing but darpoks.” This guy can say that because he is a free man and maybe he doesn’t have any risk in his life. If India is in an issue, will he ever go for a war? NO.
Well, any country or person is respected when they show an immense amount of internal and external resistance against the  evil.   Are we Indians showing a good level of resistance? Look at our infrastructure and bureaucracy; it has to improve a lot. Why blame it on government? We, citizens of India, are the basic problem. Just show some benefits, we will adjust of personal space for any evil. Likewise
Ephesians 4:14- Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming

 

 

Let’s put it in plain and laymen language. See, when we get an insight that we were either or wrong or right in deciding on some issues in our life, that is called minor enlightenment. Now when we are enlightened we take a decision to stick to not following the earlier pattern no matter how deep the temptations are. It’s like making our base solid and not getting overwhelmed by the temptations. Fixing our roots, laying a strong foundation.

 

 

How to lay this foundation?
Ephesians 5:2 and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
It is all about presenting ourselves as a fragrant offering and sacrifice.
In ancient Rome, after the war captives were taken to a parade and after that parade, they will be executed in a most brutal way. During the parade, right after these soldiers, there will be ladies holding fuming incense, then music instruments and all. For winners, it is a gala and time for celebrations. For losers……………….I don’t want to explain.
So here the scripture is compelling us to see ourselves as just an object of sacrifice in front the lord. We are just his creations and we are here to promote lord despite the religion. One day we will leave everything here and travel back to the source. We dunno that time, infarct no one knows that exact time.
AS an astrologer people ask for predictions, to be frank, I don’t like the prediction part of astrology. It’s all because we should leave that fixing the time part to God. No astrologer should focus on predictions but look more into explaining how the person is programmed and what the best is for him. So that people can understand themselves more.
How can we present ourselves as fragrance sacrifice? Sacrificing is definitely a tough task and pleasing god is not an easy task. That’s why people looking for easy methods like remedies. If you have a problem, then get a gemstones or rudraksha……….The challenges are here to show how much we trust in the lord. These challenges are inbuilt and it will come up to us on the time which is fixed by the Lord. Dasa systems give a lot of idea about those timings, but the intensity of the event can only by decided by the lord. The way out from the issue also is shown by the Lord. Certain issues are given to us and we are destined to live with that. We should not block it, instead accept it and live with it. Even if it is a tough situation, decide to live according to the standards set by the lord leaving all our ego on one side………..So, it’s all about sacrificing ourselves.

It was my deep desire from my childhood to submit myself in the service of my Lord. I remember during my school days itself I was fed up with the way world works and just wanted to run away from the crowd and be alone in the nature. I used to wonder if the universe which we can see is so attractive and mesmerizing, how the realm which God receives our soul could be . All my life I deeply, crazily and madly searched for my Lord than searching for any wealth or comfort or love from a man. I never felt any of these things are more valid than God’s love.   If as a  sacrifice with a great fragrance, I was ready to leave my life of material comforts to be with my lord. I was not afraid of being starved or killed or persecuted for my trust in my Lord. …….but…… As I grow up………I started losing that grip from the zeal for my Lord Allmighty…….. The pressure to be in the main stream world is so nasty……….I have seen people falling down to the lowest morals , even I myself at sometimes to stand infront of the world………slowly ,slowly I started going down in my faith. 

 

 

The innate zeal or desire was to get back to the lord at any cost……..and I am going back to that old love and commitment. Me and my Lord alone……..holding hands and spending time till eternity………He is my love, he is my everything…. not the money, my family or fame or name……..Never desired any of things truly……..But cant run away from the worldly  commitments too…….

 

 

Life is different when the love and zeal for the Lord consumes us…… The pleasure of that life is just limited to few people………and I think I am privileged to know that like that few….My LORD………..pls hold me safe and secure…….and I dont want to get detached from you for anything in the world……Thats my prayer……..

 

In order to feel the need to sacrifice, we should set our eyes or fix our eyes in the lord no matter however harsh the situation we go through. We should always be grateful for the good things and keep on remembering it. I ,so many times forget the value of good things like my parents, my family, my education, my talents, my health , wealth and so many other things jump into the worldly desires. Then I lose that focus and fall into traumas……..Then I cry out Lord to pull me out if this dungeon. The truth is that Lord is truthful and not forgetful; he always has come to my rescue, even if I am a shit.

 

 
Then again me making a promise to sacrifice myself for the love of my lord. Again me falling into some other crisis, again crying out to the lord. Well, the limitations of three dimensions are so powerful, yet life is all about trying to break the chains and get united with that force which created the entire universe. For that, every human being is created and everyday life is just a sign of reminding us that we are just nothing but dust…..And we don’t have an existence without a soul, which solely belongs to God. We just own it on an agreement that we should sacrifice ourselves and set the soul free and entrust it with Lord again……..

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