Bye, My Dear
I just reached my office, its 8:30 AM. I couldn’t sleep properly over night as throughout the day I had so much of unpleasant experiences. My pet dog passed away and I was in tears. That poor thing was not keeping well for so many days. He was pretty old though . I adopted his from one of my friend a few years back.
This dog was a sub-breed of Lhasa and it was very tough to take care of him. He was very unfriendly during the initial days and he bit me thrice. The third time it was so deep and fatal , I was referred to Kottayam Medical College. My parents were so upset that I brought that dog home.
Since he was a special breed, he needed special care. Every 2nd week I had to trim him and bathe him. Otherwise, he would stink. He was a snow-white dog so little mud can make the dog so ugly. It will take at least 2 hours to trim and bathe this dog. After that, I get severe back pain. Bathing him was a Himalayan task for me.
He needed a special diet. During the summer, because of heat, he used to get boils and I never knew this. I could see a worm on his body, and then I saw he had a big wound and he is bleeding. Then we called the Vet and he sedated the dog and operated it. This dog was so fond of me after the initial unfriendliness. It used to wait for me when I come back from the office. I used to buy jalebis, laddu and even stole the cream biscuits which my Mom stored for my children.
Day before yesterday, he passed away, I dunno when, may be during the midnight. I wanted to be at home to cremate him. I could not because I had so much of work at my office. I was feeling so bad and sad. It really hurts me.
I made a water lily pond at home. The gardener told me not to keep any fish in the pond. I used to take care of my water lilies very religiously and they were so grateful to me. They gave me so many flowers. Last month when I went to my sis-in-laws house, I saw water lily there also, but in a smaller pond. They had this guppy fishes in that. My sis- in- law’s mom Usha aunt is a very creative person and she was kind enough to give me some fishes. I took these fishes from Alwaye to Kottayam . She gave me Nutmeg plant, aloe vera, and some other plants also.
I put those guppy fishes there and told my son to take care of them. He is like me, he likes farming, pets and he is a homely boy. He religiously took care of the fishes and one day my husband told me one among that fishes will lay eggs soon. After two weeks our water lily pond was full of fishes. My son was so excited and he phoned me I was in the office ” Mommy, we got baby fishes.’’ I congratulated and appreciated his hard work he put in taking care of my fishes and plants.
Even though I was happy, suddenly I got a feeling that my pet dog is going to die soon. I became so restless and shared my family that any time this dog can die. I dunno why I felt so, just one day before he dies, I felt I should bathe him. The dog was not at all keeping well. I insisted my dad that I should bathe my dog. I bathe him and while I was bathing I felt I will never get an opportunity to this again. I washed his beautiful fur with Tresseme shampoo. I was not crying, but I was so burdened. That night he died. Even when I write this my eyes are full of tears. Maybe it is a dog, but I had a soul connection with him. After it came into my life, so many good things happened. I completely believe that, that dog was my lucky charm.
After I come to the office, I was so moody. Whatever communication I did yesterday it went wrong. Evening my daughter called me and said she had a severe tooth ache and I took her to the dentist. My daughter’s maha Dasa is changing after 2 months. So she will have physical ailments during this time period. Three weeks back she had body pain and I took her to the doctor, the doctor said nothing to worry. Then I told her that your Mahadasa is changing, the current maha Dasa will give you aches like this so don’t worry about that. She was so angry with me. She was yelling at me actually. ‘’ Please don’t share your astrology with me. I hate that and I don’t believe in astrology”’ The same thing I wanted to tell her yesterday that this is just because your maha Dasa is going to change, but I was afraid. She didn’t sleep whole night yesterday. She didn’t lie down also. She was sitting on the bed, walking through the room out of her poor physical condition. My sleep also got interrupted. I was also waking up in between. Next two months her condition will be like this only. Now it’s tooth ache, maybe after this, she will have some other physical issues.
My Antar Dasa is also changing tomorrow and next 1 year will be the last phase of Ketu Mahadasa. The whole Ketu Dasa was a severe torture for me since it started in 2010. Today when I was studying about “Dasha Pravesh Concept” I was just correlating each and every event in my life through the lens of Ketu.
This dasa is a horrifying phase for almost all the people. Ketu is the signifier of spirituality, moksha, isolation, detachment, asceticism, secrets, illusion and mystical sciences. During this dasa even though I really struggled a lot,( now also struggling) the universe showed my who am I, how will I behave, how emotionally strong am I, how much is the amount of my faith?, how mean I can be, how cruel I can be, what should be my mission, how should I sharpen my vision, what stand should I take while dealing with an opposite gender, what my past karma is, what karmic backlogs I have, what should be my future plans, what my motto should be , how to align myself according to the divine force and so many other things.
Coming back to my pet, Ketu is the indicator of detachment and isolation. During this dasa so many endings I saw than beginnings. I detached myself from many my familial relations, many friends, and even dared to question my bosses. Many of my family members passed away. Ketu is detachment and isolation. It will take you through the realities of the relationships. It doesn’t have to be marital or love relationship. It can be any relation in which you play the main role. If anyone of you are going through Ketu dasa and feeling that restlessness, then there is only one remedy for that. It is not wearing a gemstone or doing any ‘VIDHI”. I don’t believe in that because guys please trust me we are living in the 21st century. Such remedies will not work. The only remedy is just looking at your God. And resting in his arms.
Whether you are a Hindu, Islami , Christian or even a Mormon. During the Ketu dasa your faith will be tested. Through Ketu dasa, God will choose your relationships to prove what stability you have in your relationships. It can be any relationship. I have seen the astrologers in the west being more open about their planetary placements, and here in the East, astrologers are very hesitant to share their planetary alignments. They may be feeling that others would come to know their secrets and their private life can be traced. Well, in theology class we used to give open testimony about what common people say “yuch”.
In Romans 3:23 God says “For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard” .
In the eyes of God, no one is perfect. Only the intensity and nature of sin varies. I have never seen a perfect person in my life who has never sinned. In theology class, I have heard such intense confessions. There was a sex worker (lady) with whom I and my class mates spend 1 week listening to her life and how she turned into a sex worker. I have seen people who were lower than her in morality and they are much respected in their public life. They are worshiped as idols. That is the standard of human beings.
So, I was comparing western and eastern astrologers. My Ketu is in the 3rd house of media, writing, siblings, technology, courage, self-effort, mental status, and neighbors.
From the 3rd house, it has 3 aspects 5th, 7th, and 9th. From the 3rd house Ketu is aspecting the 7th house of spouse marriage, agreements contracts , open enemies and other people , then 9th house of media, writing , publishing, foreign travels, philosophy, spirituality , astrology and adventures then the 11th house of hopes, gains, friendships, collective projects , children and youth groups. Ketu in 3rd house is very good for intellectual effort based on astrology, but it doesn’t favor a happy time.
During the commencement of Ketu dasa I was forced to come back to my parent’s house with 2 kids. I had a good job in a company in Techno park and I was forced to resign because the son’s health was not allowing me to go for a job. He needed more care. I was unable to go to the office most of the days. So I had to leave my husband alone there and came to stay with my parents. Ketu is influencing the 7th house of spouse. After coming home, I really struggled to get a job, but I got a good job, but again I had to quit it. I was really troubled by the situation and I asked my husband to come back with us as taking care of 2 kids is not easy. Especially my children are not small kids. Now, they are putting so many restrictions on me. They are telling me what to do and what not to do. My daughter, a teenager, is happier to be with her father than me.
My husband and children have Aquarian and Sagittarian connection so they are a good team. I always feel as a stranger with them. They are not intersted in astrology. Only my son asks in between ” Mommy is my Moon Exalted?’ So, my husband started trying to get a job in Kochi, but till date, he didn’t get it. Finally, I had to tell him,” You may hate astrology and astrologers. We should stop trying for a job because now it’s my Ketu dasa and Ketu is influencing my 7th house of husband so it’s time for us to stay in different places. You will get a job in Kochi during my Venus dasa starts, that too in 2018. “This is one specialty of Ketu dasa that there will be some kind of distance between the couples. If not properly managed, this distance can even end in a permanent separation.
Ketu is spirituality. It is pushing you into more and more spirituality where you find a crisis in connecting with pleasures of the material world. Then Ketu is looking at an 11th house with its 9th aspect. This house if friends and team projects. I detached myself from most of my friends in the world. I was so shocked, that yesterday after coming back from the dentist, I went to a supermarket. I entered the shop and I didn’t notice anyone there, I directly went to take what I wanted. Suddenly I saw one guy coming running to me. I could not identify who he is at the first sight. He asked me in a loud voice” where are you running idiot” For the next 1 minute I was totally in a crisis because I can’t identify this man. Then he took my hand and said “you forgot me? I am John ‘’ Then I was really ashamed because he was my classmate and best friend during my pre-university class. We met around 6 years back and after that, we are meeting now. Before that, he came to my home with his wife who is a Bengali and her brother is ex-Mr. India Abhijit Sanyal. I was so lost for some time, and feeling so cheap. He must have thought that I have become pricey. He was emotional , truly. His wife, she hugged me I blocked her telling, I am badly sweating. Still she hugged me telling “we all sweat no problem.”
At the same time, I got so many friends from the astrologer gang. I started dreaming about doing more for charity, started some charity programs, started learning more astrology, theology, and traveled so much. I even got an offer for a free international trip. I may go after October.
At the same time, I have seen myself becoming unemotionally practical. Nothing affects me these days. I dunno how I learned to keep a numb face in front of all. Other day my mom was watching Shree O N V Kurup funeral service and sad. She kept on telling about how she enjoyed listening to the songs and how she feels now. I got irritated and asked her to stop wailing. Suddenly she got angry with me telling” I have never seen a heartless person like you. You are so rude and arrogant. An ordinary human being will be moved when he listens to Shree ONV s songs. You don’t have a heart or any emotions which a human should have.”
I was never so hard like this. Even in a theology class I was the softest hearted person . I remember once a family came for counseling when they started sharing their problem, I started shedding tears. Others started staring at me strangely.
Ketu dasa is harsh, but it will make you strong and very much defensive of your values. It throws you into the deep pit of spirituality through the events you go through in that phase. It isolates you, detaches us from the materialistic and worldly thoughts. It spurs you to advance ahead with the harsh lessons. These lessons will be a treasure in your life. Depends on upon the house it is placed, it will bring events and people to your life, just to teach you how meaningless the world of Maya is.Once you successfully come out of that you will surely be a new person.
During this dasa so many good things happened to me. I started repairing my relation with my parents, bro, and my cousins and started detaching all nonsense people from my life. I start to see everything with an insight; I got so many good contacts. The association with Maruanadan Malayali itself is a great blessing. I never expected such things in my life even though I am an astrologer.
Sometimes I think I could have performed better as a female yogi. The life of sanyasis has always enticed me. When I write this I get Goosebumps. Maybe god has some other plans for me. I humbly submit myself in front of him. Let him take me over . Let him use me as a medium. That doesn’t mean I am a holy being. We all are messengers of God. We send messages of god to others by action.
I always say in my prayers, “God you can give me pains, you can give me troubles and temptations, but please give a support when I fall’’
This Ketu dasa is continuing with its own harshness in my life. The lessons were painful but the end results are good only. I love my god. Moksha is the ultimate destination. Ketu dasa is just a speed breaker on that way to moksha.
I detached from so many things during this dasa, but what hurt me most was the death of my pet dog Christie. Nothing hurt me more than that. When he was alive so many times I went to him and said in the language of silence which I and he only knows
‘’ I may not come back to earth anymore. I am on the run to correct my Karmas. If something failed and I come back…. Then you should come back to my life as my pet”
He must have understood that silent language which only two souls can understand. ……….He was a motivator during my pains.
And there was evening, and there was morning