My Journey as an Astrologer
When I describe their charts to my clients and friends, some of them are interested in a detailed description, but the majority of them don’t like that complicated analysis. They say we don’t want that ”Mars aspects Saturn, Jupiter casting the influence on 2nd house”, We want only the clear cut answer about our future. They add, “these complicated and weird calculations can only be done by an astrologer”. I laugh when I hear that. Why because I myself only know how poor I was in my math classes. I remember me even getting a zero and my dad slapping me with a stick and my mom trying to prevent him. My bro,, who is a medico was so bright in studies and my parents had high expectation from him. He was standing in a corner and laughing loudly listening to my pleas to stop slapping me. The hatred towards mathematics was always there in me and to be truthful, the only math lesson I understand is the lesson related to astrology. I can easily calculate them even without a software, but I depend upon software so that the manual calculations will take around 3 days.
I was never bothered about my academics, and I never had any dream to be a doctor or engineer. Frankly speaking, I never had any high ambitions about myself. I never wanted to participate in the competition of any kind in the society. Such a child will be a headache for any parent and she/he will be counted as a black sheep in the family as I was. The one thing I was interested since my childhood was getting connected to the multi-dimensional realm. I am grateful to the convent school education that they gave me a great interest in the concept of God. My family atmosphere was not that religiously connected and my dad was a strong atheist. He used to tell me and my bro ‘There are too many gods in the world, but no godliness or humanity. This world needs good humans try to be that if you can”. There were no restrictions at my home to learn any religion. Even from my childhood, I started learning Geeta, Mahabharat, Ramayan, Bible, Quraan and I have even read antichrist and devil worship books. I was so, so drawn to that multi-dimensional details and I was so zealous in gaining more and more knowledge about it.
My dad has a library at home, it has around 300 books including, novels, political literature, historical details, biographies, astrology, palmistry and the list go on. Now also, my dad buys books and I also buy a book and I have a small library of my own. I told my husband as we are on constructing our house, we should have a library at home even if we don’t have a prayer room. We can combine library and prayer room. I may be spending my time there reading and doing my astrology work. I think I was in 7th standard I found a book about palmistry in my dad ‘s library written by the most successful palmist “Cheiro” and that’s can be said as a stepping stone to my life as a professional in mystical sciences. I started reading this book day and night and I hide this book under my coat, so that no one could find it. I was reading and testing it in my own family members. I understood that this technique is working so well because I knew the life of my family members, so it was easy to analyze. I tested that with my friends and there also it was working. I started loving the subject so much my mom found that I am spending time with “Cheiro” and after that I never saw that book. I remember I was so good at palmistry but later I start forgetting that slowly, but now also when someone opens their palm, like in public even in a quick glance I am able to say at least 10 facts from their life.
Interest towards astrology also developed during school days but of course after I started forgetting “Cheiro”. I truly don’t remember which book I read first, but at some point of time, I started reading “Linda Goodman” .I got through my school and I had an insight that I will become a media person. I loved learning language and literature I told my parents don’t put me in a science group, my mind is delicate and I can’t learn physics or chemistry. During those days, media job was not considered as an ideal profession for ladies even though we all loved Ms.Sarla Maheshwari, Ms. Usha Albuquerque, and Ms. Rini Khannaa. My dad was so crazy and put me in science group and I could not do better. Even though I had a strong yoga to be a surgeon in my astrology chart. Now I think that yoga is for my profession in alternative medicine which I am learning now. I am not joking, I am telling you I can look at the face and find whether this person has a physical ailment. Astrological information is just a value addition for that skill.
Well, I somehow got through my pre-university and then my parents understood that I can’t be a doctor as they wish. I spend 1 year in doing BA English lit. I was the topper in my class. Trust me. My teachers were so so fond of me and they used to encourage study well you will be the topper in the university. I dunno whether to curse or say kudos to myself about leaving that degree class for LL.B. I never liked my law classes. I was never interested in that subject, I just got through the entrance exam, and it is a professional course my parents were proud about me for the first time in their life LOL …..that’s the only reason I went there. I literally hated that environment. I even thought of going back to my degree class……… but I could not. I never had any dreams about my classmates or colleagues or never wanted to be a lawyer. The only interest was the multidimensional realms, super god, extra-terrestrials, ghosts, para normal experiences, astrology, spirituality, philosophy, and of course charity. When I write this you should not think that I was a sinless pure soul, who was only connected to god, it was not at all like that. I have always realized that I am such an arrogant, impatient, lustful, and disobedient and the list go on.
Maybe it is god’s call, I got a chance to study theology during my second year of law. I used to see those gals, doing charity work and always smiling at me and friends. I went with them and there the theology life started. Then I never looked back. Because those were the type of people whom I wanted to interact with, those were the people whom I wanted to spend time with, those were the people whom I wanted to spend my life with……but none of them were astrologers or they never liked astrology. So I had to shut my astrology knowledge here as well. Long years of theology life taught me various shades of spirituality, human nature, charity, forgiveness, humility and my challenge was to be humble, control my lust, and to be obedient. Life of a true theologian is not easy, god will test our faith like anything. He will take us through all the temptation and if we successfully overcome it, there is a place for us in heaven. Guys, I look only at eternal life even though I have my own share of challenges also.
I joined my theology and I lost my entire interest in legal studies. I got married during the second year from to my classmate in theology class. During all these years I was learning more and more astrology combined with theology and I felt there is a great connection between both subjects. In my opinion, astrology is a divine subject and the purity in the personal life of the astrologer will definitely influence his predictions. Theology compels the astrologer to be pure and to repent of his sins and astrology throws light on his life and about the possible situations which can come up in his life. That’s my take on this. I don’t believe in remedies as I think we humans are really nothing in front of this universe and issues and problems should be confronted with faith, prayer and action.
It was in 2007 after my second child my astrology career started. I dunno why and how I started meeting psychics and astrologers in my life for the first time. That great personality from Kollywood was my husband’s friend. He doesn’t want to reveal himself as a psychic and a mystic but he gave me a great reading because I was little discouraged with my personal life. After he gave that reading I became so hopeful and started thinking “why can’t I do this? I also know it.” There I started my astrology journey, my husband, parents or my kids never knew that I was an astrologer. I never felt like telling them. My husband literally hates astrologers even though he has never been to an astrologer. It was during my mercury – Saturn dasa. Then more troubles were waiting for me because my Ketu dasa was starting. Ketu is in the 3rd house astrology so those troubles were a reason to bring out the astrologer in me. My Ketu –Sun time that was in 2012 November transformed to proclaim myself as an astrologer. I had so many trials starting from my Mercury dasa till Ketu -Venus dasa in 2012 November came to an end as soon as I started helping more and more people through theology and astrology. Yes, there were disheartening experiences after that, but I can say now, at present I am much much happy and contended than even in my life. I hope things will get better every day as I am more prayer full and begging for god’s mercy. Falling at his feet and praising him for showing his glory to me. For giving an opportunity to be what I am and to find myself, the real self.
I always knew that I will never become a big shot in a corporate environment. I am not interested in that worldly status or recognition. I have never chased any human or comforts in my life. I strongly believe if something is destined written for me, those things will come to me. Let it be blessings, people, emotions, wealth or curses. I will never chase anything in my life. If something god has decided for me, that will come to me and the universe will conspire to bring those things to me.
Still my parents or my family members are not that aware that I am an astrologer or I am writing in portals. They have found me crazy and out of this world. And when someone say” she is a crazy lady” I really love that statement. Because I never wanted to go with the flow. All I wanted is satisfaction from being human and do good for those people who need it. We are just nothing but we should try the best to reach that perfection where God can choose us when comes with all his glory. I am fine if I am crazy, poor or ugly because these are the standards of human beings. I firmly believe, even though I am not a perfect person, I have some place in God’s palace even as a servant and that’s enough for me.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.